Did today :) x
A week passed since Zayn’s relationship status changed in puplic and it was awful. Of course he has fans who love him if he’s single or not. But there a lot more who hate me now. We can’t go anywhere without bodyguards anymore, every time a huge crowd appeared and we couldn’t enjoy our time.
“Everything okay babe?”, Zayn’s voice took me back to reality.
I watched the faces pressed to the window on my left side. I licked my lips and forced a smile before I faced him.
“Sure, it’s just.. I feel observed.”
“Do you want to go?”
“Actually..yes”, I whispered.
Zayn stood up without any expression, he took his jacket and walked to a waitress. I heard him saying that we’re leaving and we didn’t want our drinks and food anymore. He paid anyway. I still sat at the table and watched him carefully. Suddenly he turned around and looked at me. He raised his eyebrows at me and waved with his hands aggressively. I pushed the anger aside and stood up, walking pass him. Cal, our bodyguard, waited by the door.
“We’re leaving”, I said.
“Alright Amy, where’s Zayn?”, he asked and looked behind me.
“Talking to the waitress, but I’m feeling not good. Could you bring me to the car?”
He put his arms around my shoulders and opened the door. Incredibly loud screams filled my ears, I felt hands touching me everywhere. I don’t understand how they could find us.. I mean we were here for 15 minutes. I pressed my body against Cal’s to protect myself. When I was in the car Cal made sure the doors are closed before he went inside to get Zayn. Soon I felt the tears falling down my cheeks, I didn’t want to cry but that’s just what I thought will take the pressure away for now. I whipped them away and tried to breathe calmly. I looked out of the car window, I was happy that it was darkened so the fans couldn’t see me. When Zayn sat beside me the car started moving, slowly. We didn’t talk to whole car ride, I couldn’t wait until we reached the basement garage of the hotel. I stormed out and walked fast.
“Amy, stop!”, I heard Zayn yelling.
“Just move faster, I need a shower.”
When we entered the hotel room Zayn closed the door and suddenly gripped my arm, harshly.
“Stop it”, he said rather angry.
“Stop what?”, I yelled back.
“Stop being childish and talk to me! I thought you wanted this?”
“I wanted you! But I don’t want your hundreds of fans who are following you where ever you are!”, I got free from his grip. “This whole ‘I don’t have to work-week’ was awful! We didn’t have much fun and time alone, did we?”
“You knew that this would happen? I told you it could be hard sometimes. If you want me you can only have me with my fans!”
I watched him and I just didn’t believe what came out of his mouth. Didn’t he see how difficult all of this is for me? I don’t want to be famous. I can’t take all of this and he was angry with me. What a wonderful boyfriend.
“Look we’re all over Twitter now because of your little outburst! It’s just not working this way. You can’t to what you want Amy! We need to take care of our actions now!”
Is this the Zayn I fell in love with? My best friend since we were kids?
“I’ll take a shower.”
After an one hour shower I decided to left the bathroom. When I walked through the hotel room I didn’t find Zayn and I didn’t know how I felt about that. I dressed myself and dried my hair when I was finished I made my way over to Harry’s hotel room. I knocked a few times before he opened it.
I rushed pass him to the living room and found Louis on the sofa. I needed someone to talk and I didn’t care that Louis would listen right now.
“I don’t know if I want this Harry”, I said straight.
“What do you mean?”
“I- I mean I don’t know if I want the famous-Zayn”, and just like that I cried because deep down I knew I couldn’t live without Zayn.
Harry and Louis looked at me kind of surprised. Was it right to come downstairs? I covered my teary eyes and mumbled to myself.
“Oh my god, how could I say something like this!”
It was the same hotel room Zayn and I had that’s why I knew where the bathroom would be. I opened the door and locked it. I pressed my head to the door and cried.
“Ames?”, I heard a voice behind me.
I turned around and saw Zayn. Did he hear what I’ve said? Was he crying? His eyes were red and puffy, it looked like he was about to make himself presentable. I didn’t move and he was hesitant. We knew each other such a long time and all this misery pushed as too far away. It fell an awkward silence between us.
“I’m sorry. I’m sorry I put you through all of this”, Zayn whispered. He took a step closer. “But, I love you. I don’t want to live without you. Please don’t leave me. I, I will make this all okay for you. I promise. I’ll make time for us.. alone. And.. and if it doesn’t work I will stop all of this. I will stop singing, I will learn a proper job, I will do everything you want me to do because I need you.. I only need you”, Zayn explained.. but I knew it took all of his power to say it. He didn’t want this but he was willing to try.. for me.
Without a blinking I fell into his arms, I hugged him tight. His arms wrapped around my waist and his face buried into my neck. I loved his arms around me and I loved him. I had two options right now. I will argue with him.. make things worse and lose him. Or I will just follow my heart and fight for our love.
I just snapped inside.
“What girlfriend would I be if I let you slip the only thing you really can?”, I whispered to him and smiled lightly. He slowly looked me into the eyes, I felt his heart pounding and I just nodded, he did hear right. “I don’t want you to stop singing. I’d never want you to leave One Direction.. and I won’t break things up with you because of this. I couldn’t.”
I felt new tears falling down. He cupped my face with his hands and closed his eyes while his forehead pressed against mine.
“You are the best”, his voice was shaking. “I promise I will make this work between us. I don’t want to lose you.”
“This is just the beginning with One Direction, …I’m just scared”, I whispered.
“Don’t be”, he took both of my hands and smiled at me. His smile made me believe everything.
He kissed my lips softly.
“And I will do everything to protect you because you’re my best friend and I’m in love with you.”
- The End -
Wow, thank you everyone who read this story. It means so much to me, you have no idea. I appreciate every message from you guys. And well thank you again I hope you guys like the end :)
I was thinking maybe I will write the same fanfiction of -Zayn’s point of view- I just want to read what you guys think about it. And about a sequel I have no idea yet and that’s why I can’t tell you anything :) xx lots of love